Hmmm...I'm not sure I've thought about it too much. What do I want out of CoDA? As soon as he asked, I realized that I hadn't thought about it. Focus & purpose. Oh yeah - that. Years pass and very little has changed. Why should it? I wasn't expecting it to. I didn't push myself to reach my goal. So, what is my goal for CoDA?
CoDA is where I start. It is my springboard to growth. I want to live in freedom -- accepting the things I cannot change and changing the things I can. That's what I want from CoDA. To learn the difference between what I can and cannot change. That's a good start. Maybe I'll start there and list the things on my mind lately. So, maybe I can start letting go of the things I cannot change.
Okay so I've thought about it a little more. I'm nervous about wanting anything from CoDA. Why? Because I'm skeptical I'll follow through. My past is filled with grandiose beginnings and very little endings. So, I'll start small. I want to walk through all twelve steps. I want the experience of completing the twelve steps before reevaluating CoDA's benefit in my life. I want to walk through the steps by my 29th Birthday in January.
I will do this by meeting at least once a week with my Sponser be it in person or by some other means.
I will finish reading the Melody Beatty book my sponsor gave me to read as I walk through the twelve steps.
And finally, I will journal my journey through the twelve steps on these pages.
There. I want the satisfaction of completing this long-term goal. I deserve it.
Keep coming back. It works if I work it and I'm worth it.
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Hmmm...I'm not sure I've thought about it too much. What do I want out of CoDA? As soon as he asked, I realized that I hadn't thought about it. Focus & purpose. Oh yeah - that. Years pass and very little has changed. Why should it? I wasn't expecting it to. I didn't push myself to reach my goal. So, what is my goal for CoDA?
CoDA is where I start. It is my springboard to growth. I want to live in freedom -- accepting the things I cannot change and changing the things I can. That's what I want from CoDA. To learn the difference between what I can and cannot change. That's a good start. Maybe I'll start there and list the things on my mind lately. So, maybe I can start letting go of the things I cannot change.
Okay so I've thought about it a little more. I'm nervous about wanting anything from CoDA. Why? Because I'm skeptical I'll follow through. My past is filled with grandiose beginnings and very little endings. So, I'll start small. I want to walk through all twelve steps. I want the experience of completing the twelve steps before reevaluating CoDA's benefit in my life. I want to walk through the steps by my 29th Birthday in January.
I will do this by meeting at least once a week with my Sponser be it in person or by some other means.
I will finish reading the Melody Beatty book my sponsor gave me to read as I walk through the twelve steps.
And finally, I will journal my journey through the twelve steps on these pages.
There. I want the satisfaction of completing this long-term goal. I deserve it.
Keep coming back. It works if I work it and I'm worth it.
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